Sunday, October 03, 2010

always accusing of how people change and change and change.
always mocking people making use of their friends
maybe its me, i'm the one that is like that.
changing into someone- someone that relies heavily on friends to help me,
maybe i was like that in the past, but i do keep up connections with them.
like true friends that help me through my life.
but now, why do i become someone that relies on friends that i don't talk to usually, just text or msn them asking for help help help with my uni work.
i don't even think that i deserve their help, because i'm a bad friend.
i just find them when i need help, and i don't keep up connections with them.

feel really lucky that they are still trying to help me when they can.

i feel really really sorry and thankful towards them, but don't know what to do, because i don't have enough time to bond with people, don't know how to bond with people. feel so guilty, so bad.

i'm stuck on my econ essay, don't know how to write it.
got the information and the essay plan but just can't start writing it, fitting the pieces together, more like fitting the pieces of my heart together to do it.

what we could have been, 12:28 PM.